「Ma Petite Princesse」

A bit busy

2011-04-19T02:45:00.000-07:00

I'm almost in the same position as last year. The only difference I don't have final exams. Again scouting for an art school.

So I'm not posting much, a real shame actually.

But in thought of my last post about Paper love I made a birthday card for my niece.

She turns 13 this week.

Paper Love

2011-03-22T02:57:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to "De vlieger" a paper store. I'm just a complete sucker for pretty paper, though I didn't buy paper I did buy Japanese adhesive tape. It fits with my paper collection.

[ Japanese adhesive tape]

[ My favorite notebooks]

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Le petite prince

♥ Paper Love ♥
♥ This might be my favorite store, it's dutch though So Vlieger
♥ I love these notebooks and stamps really lovely, but also quite expensive. It's cavallini and co

I usually buy Cavallini & co at sissy boy.

♥ Old stuff shop Dutch store that has a lot of paper, I'm not sure how good the serves is though.

♥ Of course there's enough beautiful paper on Etsy

♥ Also they're quite some pretty old cards at secondhand markets.

♥ Polaroid wrap paper of Nancy and Betty
♥ Ebay always has cute stuff

Especially for my God Mother

2011-03-02T07:22:00.000-08:00

On monday the 21th I went to the Monday market with my mother and God Mother, my God mother bought me a beautiful jacket there and I still need to thank her, because I'm so happy with it!

Here it is and isn't it beautiful? I love it so much ♥

So Nanette thank you so much!

And everyone else be jealous of my beautiful green coat!

- Antique monster over and out ♥

Desperate Romantics

2011-02-28T07:23:00.001-08:00

This is one of those series I bought without knowing what I'd get. It's a BBC series and has six episodes. I think one of the things I really like about this series is also a bit the tricky part, Desperate romantics is about the Pre-raphaelite brotherhood: I'll be honest I don't know everything about them .. but I know a lot and I really dislike it when the facts are off.

So as I feared the facts are not really in it they dramatized it, but even so I feel like it's worth my while. I'm actually getting fond of the characters. The main characters;

Millais, Rossetti, "Maniac" hunt and "Fred"

John Everette Millais, Dante Gabriel Rossetti, William "Maniac" Holman Hunt, and the story teller Fred are our Pre-raphaelite brotherhood. (The truth is Fred is a combination of four people, they do this more often I guess to make the story a bit less complicated).

Yesterday I watched the forth episode and I like it a lot. One of the things I really like about the series are all the side characters who we all know of that era such as Dickens and Ruskin.

It's just the Title, I like the music of it.

My personal favorite, not only as a painter, but now also in this series is Millais.

I'm almost through this series though I'm sorry it's so short.

ANother Secret.

2011-02-18T14:51:00.000-08:00

So I've jumped back to my Ball joined dolls hobby,
Lately I've been trying to blush the hands and feet of my Okita (I haven't named him yet, since he still doesn't have a face-up I feel like he isn't yet a person). Secretly I've been thinking of naming him "Precious" since that's what he is to me.I'll probably update the pictures of the blushing, if it's any good.

So if looked up some bjd companies and found ANother secret, it's a company that only sell's head sculpture's I've been following them for a little while and last week I read about ANother secret on Den of Angel and saw this promotion picture.

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I know another Alice in wonderland series there already so many, but I have to admit I really like this "White Rabbit"; Mr. Rabbit.

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Mr. Rabbit just has something in his face I really like, he's sort of cute and looks almost like he's about to nibble at some lettuce (you can also get additional teeth as well, hehe).

Personally I think Alice is cute and all, like a porcelain doll but she's just not my thing. I don't like her much, maybe it has to do with her face-up.

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See what I mean?

As for the Mad hatter "Mr Hat" in the promotion picture you can see a bit of him. I'm quite curious what he'll look like; will he be charming?

I'd love to see more of ANother secret sculpture's.

- Antique Monster.

Like a rainbow

2011-02-04T10:29:00.000-08:00

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"You with the sad eyes don't be discouraged

oh I realize it's hard to take courage

in a world full of people you can lose sight of it all"

So last Monday I went to Haarlemmerdijk my favorite shopping street of amsterdam to buy 120 films for my Rolleiflex.

In the Haarlemmerdijk are several great shops such as the shop I went to Nivo Schweitzer a dutch photography shop. They sell all sorts of films 120 black and white but also colour (they even have my favorite films 120 Kodak vivid colour), but that Monday I discovered also another interesting shop. I'm not sure what it was called but what I do remember are the rainbow coloured camera's they sold there. These camera's are from a brand called lomography and I really like them, I totally felt in the mood of taking pictures! Which was a good thing since I started a photography course that very same evening.

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"your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow"

Those bright colours put me in the mood for sunshine and summer. The whole Haarlemmerdijk and Haarlemmerstraat put me in a sunshiney mood.

- Vintage Monster over and out.

The Murakami Reading Challenge.

2011-01-26T05:16:00.000-08:00

I run across this challenge while reading the blog blue eyed night owl, which I follow by the way. It's funny the owner of blueeyednightowl is someone I sort of know and how last summer we talked quite a lot about Murakami. So I'm definitely in for this reading challenge, ah rereading Hard boiled wonderland oh I feel like it ♥

There are different levels of reading but since I'm such a slow reader I'll go for Sheep Man, which means I'll read three books.

- Antique Monster creping back to her favorite Murakami book.

These are a few of my favorite things.

2011-01-25T04:01:00.000-08:00

So thanks to my boyfriend June I'm reading comics again, you know those DC, Darkhorse and Marvel things. That sentence isn't exactly true since I don't read any Marvel series.

Ever since I saw Guillermo del Toro's movie of Hellboy, I've been completely in love with the character and stories. Of course it took me up till last year before I picked up reading the comic.. I'm so slow.
The thing I actually like most about the comic Hellboy is Mike Mignola's amazing drawing style, I like my comics simple and graphic sure I can look trough a hideous style if I really like the story but really I hate shiny glossy super hero's (Explanation on Marvel, eh?).

Ah, another fact which I don't think I mentioned is I'm also a huge Batman fan. I inherited the love for Batman from my dad. As a kid I mostly watched the animation on Cartoon network later on I started watching the movie's of Tim Burton. Oh Who doesn't love our rich-bitch lonesome Bruce Wayne?

The reason I gotta love this comic;

I mean come on? A beautiful style and Hellboy & Batman in one comic this gotta be good. If I wasn't so busy with school at the moment I'd finished it by now.

Just because I love this picture of Masks and Monsters.

- Greedy Monster over and out.

Lifesaver

2011-01-18T01:57:00.000-08:00

Okay a hair saver, better said my fringe saver.
So usually I have to wash my hair once in two days, rather annoying to me and when I'm on holiday I actually have to wash it everyday.
My cute fringe otherwise becomes so fat I'm unable to walk around with it.

So the last time my mum went to the hairdresser I asked the hairdresser if they knew a solution or if I was just doomed to take a haircut without a fringe.

She gave me Fugde dry shampoo and to be honest I though "And this is going to help me?" So well actually it does work. I don't know how long my hair will last now, but at least three day.

Fringe problem solved.

- Happy Antique Monster with a pretty hairdo over and out.

Tripped down into the rabbit hole.

2011-01-03T07:43:00.000-08:00

Maybe not, I just went on a trip to London.
From the 30th till the 2th I was in London with my Boyfriend and his family. I expected it to be chaotic and from time to time it was, but in the end I had a good time.
For one I met most of my boyfriends family, his half brother and uncles. I was nervous at first but of course I shouldn't have been.

My boyfriend, his sister and a part of his dad at the undergrounds.

I haven't seen to much in London, but that was of course because I've been with my boyfriends family most of the time. I have been to the Modern Tate. I've seen Harrods, truly a beautiful building I have to say and I've been to a forbidden Planet (comic store).
Sadly enough I didn't see the big firework show, saw it on telly though and it might have been for the better I was so tired all these days must have been from the drugs against car sickness.

We went to Harrods on the 1th of January, so it was sort of quite next to other days according to one of the employees.

This is a picture I made of Harrods while going down with the escalator, I also saw in Harrods for the first time Vivienne Westwood clothes.
Really a beautiful dress, but you know not for 400 £, even though that's sort of cheap next to some other brands I saw at Harrods I wonder who ever does shopping there. Who has that sort of money?
On this particular day, in the morning, I hurt my toe quite badly and so I had a hard time walking around. I did my best anyway and we could still see Harrods and Forbidden Planet but I think Sophie (my boyfriends sister) was disappointed because she couldn't go shopping (she's not a geek like us).

After Harrods we went to Hell on Earth with good cupcakes (aka; Starbucks), I'd heard before they had good cheese cake but to be real honest I didn't take it so serious. So I have to admit they have good sweetes, sugar sweetness and cupcakes.

My Sweet little Angelic Cupcake (who I devoured ♥) and the same drinks we have in college Yum, Yum ♥
So after regaining or energy we went to forbidden planet and stayed there according to any one except for my boyfriend and I, way to long.

In the end I bought two comics Batman: The killing Joke and Batman: Arkham Asylum a serious house on serious earth I also bought a Blood energy drink I wanted one of those for quite a while!

picture © Think Geek

I saw those on think geek before and I really love them, don't know what they taste like yet, I'll have to try. At the end of the day we ate in some big Asian food place and I made the most horrible looking combination of food (Sushi and Pizza), but hey it tasted good!
So I the end London wasn't so special on new years eve, but I had lots of fun and did somethings I wouldn't have done without my boyfriends family.

- Antique monster over and out.

A tiny sweet cupcake.

2011-01-03T02:54:00.000-08:00

I wanted to update about this way earlier, but I didn't have the change because I left on a trip to London.
The movie; "Miss Potter" was shown on bbc according to our television guide it wasn't deep, it only touched all the important subjects but didn't bother to explain them and give them enough attention. The movie was more suppose to be a fairytale for the romantic souls under us, like cotton candy, light, full of air and very, very sweet.
Alas I am an hopelessly romantic soul and I loved this movie very, very much.

After I'd seen the movie I immediately looked for my old wedgwood peter rabbit set. My whole childhood I ate from that plate and drunk milk out of the cup. I remember using the Peter Rabbit inside to measure how much milk was left.

Oh I'm getting Nostalgic! At my young age already! Lol.
I'd Really recommender this movie to any lover of British Children stories, you have to be able to stand a little drama and a very sweet ending.. but when you can stand all of the above it's a wonderful movie.

- Antique Monster over and out.

Loving it to pieces II

2010-12-27T11:15:00.000-08:00

I felt inspirited by Peacemaker Kurogane something about the situation of Sanosuke, Shinpachi and Heisuke just keeps nagging. I just feel for them.

Beyond Repair

Drawing made by me.

"Sometimes something that was perfect once broken is beyond repair."

-Antique Monster.

My Christmas Present

2010-12-27T11:04:00.000-08:00

My Christmas present: A bjd body for my Okita head :D

Isn't he cute?

- Bjd loving Monster.

Loving it to pieces.

2010-12-13T08:15:00.000-08:00

And hating it to.

I'm talking about my favorite manga (and anime) Peace Maker Kurogane.
Tokyopop (the US translator) is a bit slow, however they're not really to blame. Apparently Peace Maker Kurogane volume 5 was published in Japan in 2005. Volume 6 is published on the first of November this year, I have to admit this probably is more Nanae Chrono doing. However I'm loving the cover of volume 6 to pieces and waiting for 5 to be translated to English, as usual I can hardly wait!

Spoiler Warning,

I haven't read volume 5, however I'm well aware of what is going to happen (after all it's based on history). I've also seen volume 5 but since it was Japanese I was unable to read it.
I Really love the cover, Heisuke looks so full of guilt (nasty traitor he is). Last summer I also ordered Nanae Chrono's artbook there was one picture with almost anyone in it, there was one part with Sano and Shinpachi they looked tormented as if they lost.. "Heisuke". After all Heisuke leaves with the rebellions and will die with them on 13 december 1867. I'm afraid that the winter event I've seen in volume 5 is this one.
It hurts me, torments me to know the comedian trio has fallen apart.
Since Heisuke left it's different. I might just.. feel a little to much for these stories though.

They look broken don't they?
Well this story sure breaks my heart.
I need to read all of it.. so hurry up tokyopop.

- Shinsengumi Monster, over and out.

The cutest combination.

2010-11-29T11:55:00.000-08:00

Because it is the cutest I've ever seen.

Personally I like the cookie monster version best.

Just showing you all,
- Monster hunting for Cuteness over and out.

Doujinshi Addict part III

2010-11-01T08:44:00.000-07:00

Here I am again, Hah-ah.
This time I'm here to tell about a doujinshi I'm most interested in.
It's called "Yume no Owari (the End of a Dream)" I own only one picture ( the cover) of this doujinshi,
but it looks very much like an awesome fanfict I once read, this one. Peacemaker kurogane has always had this.. well two sides for me, for everyone I dare say.
Everyone who once looked up Shinsengumi history knows how it'll end for our heroes and thus this had always fascinated me the most. The end and how they'll bring it.

I've never read this doujinshi but if the chance was given me I'd love to.

- Monster over and out.

International Doll & Teddybear Fair.

2010-10-30T09:34:00.000-07:00

At least,
we had been planning to go since last summer.
Yesterday we went to the International Doll & Teddybear Fair as the folder said the biggest in whole Europe! It was I have to admit quite amazing. I've never seen so much Teddybears and dolls together ever.
Personally I came for the BJD selection (which was small but satisfying) and my mother for the bears (who where way too expensive).
I've seen on my way quite some interesting things, from dolly doctors to creepy newborns (those are you average dead baby dolls, I swear they look dead.)

They look quite innocent now,
but wait until you see one in a womans arms walking around with such a thing as if it's a real un/newborn baby.
These are the beautiful eyes of German stand. They made these eyes themselves all blown of glass I was most Impressed.
Except for the BJD stand this was my very favorite, these stuffed animal looked so Victorian, reminding me of Emilie Autumn, that I had to love them. These beauties are made by Madame Marijke van Ooijen.

I really love these rats if they hadn't been so expensive I'd buy one.
These are some of the other things I saw.
In the end I only bought lace, painting supplies and glasses eyes.
I'll show the result of my eyes on my Okita some time soon.
- Antique monster over and out.

A Beautiful Lolita g-- eh boy?

2010-09-07T09:11:00.000-07:00

Oh my everlasting love for toys, figures and dolls.

Not so long ago I found nekomagic, a site full of reviews about figures, anime and much more. My main interest however are the figures. So I found the most beautiful girl...
But eh, oh as soon as I saw the anime name "Kuroshitsuji", I knew something was wrong..

Black Butler Static Arts Pre-Painted PVC Figure: Komadori Ciel

Isn't she just to beautiful to be true? Oh yes she is.. or should I say he?
'Cause boy and girls she's a trap and Ciel is a total cross dresser. Well that's not a problem to me, pretty boy pretty girl all the same; alas I love him for his dress anyway.

I need to get this figure hur-hur-hur... (he's very expensive though)

Antwerp

2010-08-06T13:17:00.000-07:00

We didn't exactly go on holiday this year,

But my parents decided to go with me for a day to Antwerp.

Practically we just walked around in the city and we went to the museum.
Antwerp is much more beautiful then I thought.

I saw this cute little toy store, some of these toys seem very familiar to me as if my grandmother used them. How cute and vintage they are.

I really love these dolls, I just had to take one home ♥

I really had a good time in Antwerp, I bought a Mr Rat pull-string doll. We went to the Museum of Fine Art (Schone Kunsten). I've seen quite some interesting painting, lots of Rubens of course, however they also had a large collection of modern art. I became very Impressed with James Ensor.
I've always had a thing for dolls, bears, toys and such but his paintings gives them a sort of dark and fearsome look. Ensor reminds me of the carnival in Venice.

Self portrait with masks 1899

Ensor is as anyone who knows me well would have expected of me a painter of the nineteenth century.
This might need a little explaining for those who don't know me that well. The last two year I was trained for my final exams in art history and every two year they change the subject. Our subject was the nineteenth century and while the whole class disliked this subject, well hated it really. I Soon learned I love the nineteenth century more than any other time in History. I found out every art style I care about is from this century (Oh it's not just paintings, also architecture, music, ballet, fashion I am one nineteenth century monster). So I made my last essay about the Victorian era (1837-1901), scored myself the highest marks on my final exam and started to notice when I feel drawn to an artist I can say that 90 % of the time he or she will be from the nineteenth century.

I had a great time ♥
- 19th century doll loving monster over and out.

Look what came in yesterday!

2010-07-31T11:52:00.000-07:00

My Bliss doujinshi!
but that's not the only thing that came in.. oh no,

Yet another expensive hobby of mine (as if Lolita Fashion wasn't enough); Ball joint dolls.
I've been dreaming of getting this particular sculpture.
Okita Souji SD13 version, sadly enough he has been sold out since 2008 ( he was a beautiful limited edition from volks).
but,
Yes a but, I've laid my greedy hands on him never the less and bought him second handed on Den of Angel.
And his sweet head came in today <3>

Isn't he the cutest? Yeah I know he's still blank but I swear he'll be the sweetest! My okii .. he'll get an original name...(just don't know one yet)

- Japan loving (money-ness) monster over and out.

2010-07-28T11:14:00.000-07:00

Today I went to the movies with a friend of mine, she saw the trailer of Inception and was determined to go. I just wanted to see a movie, to be real honest I didn't have my expectations all to high. I fear it might be the kind of movie that has all it's best scenes in the trailer.. but Oh boy what a different kind of movie it was.

Inception
"What's the most resilient parasite? An Idea. A single idea from the human mind can build cities. An idea can transform the world and rewrite all the rules. Which is why I have to steal it. "

The story as it is seems quite simple, Dom Cobb is an extractor. Meaning he enters the dreams of others and steals information of them. We follow him during his latest mission, the main goal extracting information from Mister Saito. The mission fails and so Dom and his parter Arthur have to flee, but while not getting to far Saito finds them and offers them another Job. Dom himself is in an inner struggle, His abilities have cost him his wife, his family and his nationality. Saito offers Dom a change to regain his old life in exchanged for planting a idea in someone's head, instead of taking an idea out. This is called inception and is, as far the partner of Cobb knows, impossible. Or at least far more difficult.

Inception directed by Christopher Nolan, known of The Dark Knight and Batman returns. To be honest I am a great Batman fan I absolutely dislike his batman films. While always liked his directing style, shots and colour my disappointment in his previous movies had all to do with them being Batman Movies (They just didn't fit with my idea of batman). Perhaps because this was the first original movie (being based on his own characters) I found a better liking in it. Understatement, I loved it.

Inception reminded me of the Murakami books, Murakami might be more subtle and less full of fights, but the short moments that are so confusing in the beginning, made me think of Murakami. Also the absurd world and names like Extraction and Inception made me think of a particular book: Hard Boiled wonderland and the end of the world. Always being a fan of things you have to think trough and beautiful scenes I just adored Inception.

So I'd say even for those who also thought The Dark Knight wasn't all to great, this is a must!

- Antique monster.

Doujinshi Addict part II

2010-07-27T14:45:00.000-07:00

For the addiction has no cure, so I've ordered some secondhand doujinshi from:
http://ekizo.mandarake.co.jp/shop/en/

And of course it is of my favorite circle Bliss:

As far as I know, there are only two other Peacemaker doujinshi's by Bliss so I almost have them all. Maybe I should just state that I am a Peacemaker and/or Bliss addicted as well.
Well it'll still take about one or two weeks until it'll be here, but I think it will be here before June will be here.

Reminds me I haven't mentioned it at all, but June went to Afrika the 20th of July. I gave him a little doll to take with him, her name is Sue and he took pictures with her. He mailed me about it yesterday and when he's back I'll definitely upload a picture of them.
"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated." - Lamartine,
Lamartine I can just say I agree.

- Monster over and out.

Doujinshi Addict

2010-07-21T01:09:00.000-07:00

I've once our twice mentioned I've been reading doujinshi's. First for those who don't know what a doujinshi is. A Doujinshi is like a fan manga with characters from an original manga, but with an fan story usually a love story.
Some doujinshi are just plain porn (sorry), but others are well drawn and have a cute little love story.
Doujinshika is a real profession in Japan and there are quite a few mangaka who started as a doujinshika. For example the mangaka of Peace Maker Kurogane; Nanae Chronos. Nanae Chrono used to be a doujinshika and drew quite some naruto doujinshi. Also Clamp, yes well known Clamp started out as a doujinshi circle called Clamp Clusters. I could give you a list of mangaka who have been or are still active as doujinshika.

A Naruto doujinshi by Nanae Chronos

however that's not what I'm going to tell you about. For example I usually read shounen.. since shounen is meant for boys. There is just not a single drop of love to be found. Boo!
Of course I don't want the whole manga to be about love, otherwise I'd read shoujo but I do like a little romance from time to time and that's where the doujinshi's come in.

I own about 5 doujinshi, actually I'm a real slack.. so I read most of the doujinshi online.
But I'm proud to own some Bliss doujinshi's. My favorite series is still Peace Maker Kurogane..
Bliss makes doujinshi's about my favorite pairing; Hijikata & Okita.
I own these three:

I really love bliss's drawing style, it's hard to see just on the covers but it's a gentle and subtle style. Her doujinshi they tell varied love stories often containing a serious story and a funny one. Though I cannot read kanji and my japanese is very limited I always enjoy reading bliss's doujinshi.

Bliss also makes Hetalia doujinshi but I'm not a Hetalia fan at all, just not fond of the characters. However Bliss her stories always makes me smile. (even the Hetalia ones)

So hopefully you now know why I'm such a doujinshi addict *munch munch*
- Monster over and out.

How can I ever keep up?

2010-07-16T07:36:00.000-07:00

So what are the plans honey?

That's a question I asked myself, the answer is I'll have to update more and about different thing not just my everyday life (- and how do I keep up with this?).
I'm planning on updating more pictures since I want to improve my photography skills (who have reached a level of 0.3 now) I also wish to write more reviews.
Recently I also thought about different sort of reviews I wrote my godmother about it and I'm planning to write these sort of reviews more than the ordinary ones.

So what have you been up to? (I bet not much.)

Well that's not entirely true, I have been up to quite a lot actually. I've tried to get into art school I was rejected for the HKU but I passed for the preparation course of the Rietveld and the AHK.
Quite a logical choice but I decided to go to the Rietveld. I hope to have a good time there.

However that is not the only thing I passed I also passed my exams. For that I gave myself a little (little?) treat and went to the Japan Expo in Paris. Paris is, and will always be, magical something about that city is to-- I just don't know what to call it, special? to describe. The smell of the metro, the colours of the streets, the unchanging supermarkets and even the enormous amount of tourists that always seem to be out in Paris (of course I'm one of them, but still).

J'aime Paris.

- Monstre antique (~ I'm going french)

When Hell Turns into Heaven.

2010-04-24T11:56:00.000-07:00

I tried to enter an Art school,
I was rejected,
They didn't give me any reason why,
...

That was hell, I felt .. lost, I wasn't really upset, just lost and a little disappointed.

To make it worse I got stuck in Utrecht. Sure I did eat away my pain (I ate onde-onde), but god I was stuck for more than a hour I was afraid I wasn't able to see June anymore. Luckily, the train came just in time.. and I was able to meet up with Junie~

I really wasn't so nice to Junie, but he can me so.. Well, he tends to forget stuff and find out really late what's the sitch. I got a little angry this morning.

However, it was a lot of.. arguing about nothing. After making up, June left to the party of his parents and me and my parents where about to leave too.
We'd be going to the birthday party of my niece, however the trains ( remember yesterday I was stuck in Utrecht) still didn't function like they should have. We decided not to go, for we didn't want to have a delay of hours. My dad suggested we'd have a little detour and visit a photography shop.. well you didn't hear me say no.

We went to all kind of shops and had quite some fun, there was a lovely vintage shop! I bought an awesome shirt. Really 60ties/70ties though. The Photography shop was most, most .... well I cant' find any words I found my love.. the one thing I always wanted. A rolleiflex 2.8F.

I bought the beauty, don't ask what she cost me (and my sweet parents).
After that we went to an antique stuff market, it was all so pretty and I'm so happy now.

... Heaven, my new camera can't wait to use that beauty.

Her she is;

- Antique Monster ♥

Well, 4 out of 5 doctors agree that I am actually insane.

2010-04-11T09:37:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went with my parents-in-law to a lovely museum. There was a photo collection of Japan in the '60ties and '70ties it reminded me so much of animes I used to watch. It was all really vivid, almost if I was there...
it was a movie alike, photos with audio. The audio was very interesting I have seen photos of the everyday life in japan before, but I've never hear audio from all of that. I want to see Japan for real now so badly.
June and I where all daydreamy about it, ha-hah we always are..

Will dream come true?

I sure hope so, I have lots of dreams at the moment..
Making it into art school, leaving my country all of it.. and much more.

Sadly enough my parents in law had to interfere with June's and my daydreams, they started the 10000tst fight that day about the car, the way and all sorts of things. They should seriously go to couple counseling. I mean it. They always try to make us, the kids; June, his little sister and me, a part of it. Especially me.. they always try to make me pick sides. It's more then just annoying. I always pray I won't become like that, I wouldn't want to live my life fighting with someone every day.

But over all I had a good day, I slept well in the car (my way of escape), the museum was beautiful, the people where nice and I loved meeting them, the dinner was great.
The restaurant where we ate was called; New York Hotel, It was delicious! They served all sorts of fish, which all looked so yummy! Oooh Salmon has never been so good (!) or I was just very, very hungry (ha-hah). The restaurant was very interesting on it self though, it was a little bit Art Nouveau alike. There where also lots of magazines, like a this photo magazine that had amazing pictures.
Till my surprise all of those pictures where made with a Iphone, they looked like rolleiflex photos. They are made with Hipstamatic app. Ohh, I want a Iphone now it sure is cheaper then a rolleiflex or any other old camera.

The magazine really inspired me, to bad my camera broke, luckily I still have my Polaroid. here's a picture I made there I like it it's a bit blurry though...

Until the next post! Hopefully more about camera's or fascination stuff instead of homework and fighting parents-in-law.
Sayonara!

- Broken Antique

I miss you like hell

2010-02-25T11:27:00.000-08:00

" Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.."

A different monday,

2009-12-09T07:58:00.000-08:00

It's been two days go by now,
But it's still fresh in my memory...
Marilyn Manson's concert! In my opinion it was really an awesome concert, it wasn't like dir en grey who are way better, well... it's a matter of argument. The Last Dir en Grey concert was interesting, but it wasn't all that great. I think the fan girls of Dir en Grey last time got to much on my nerves. The fans of Marilyn are less scary, if I may say so.
I've never been attacked by a Marilyn fan because Marilyn was getting a little closer and it could be he wanted to wink at me instead of at her, but then again Marilyn fans aren't all high school girls usually. (I think it's not necessary to tell you, some fan girls do these kind of things.)

In the morning I was really excited, I went with June (as usual), it feels save to go with him.. don't assume I wouldn't go without him, since I would, it's just.. it's nice to go with him.
We had a quarrel, so I kinda ignored him... but when we arrived and we talked so I kind of agreed it was about nothing to begin with. We met some people there, they were quite nice (and they liked my hat, the one that looks like Marilyn Manson's hat. The one on your left. looks kinda Nazi though Ehehe..) Anyway meeting people like that is always nice, even if it's on a strange way, the guy asked my where I got my hat.. (I got it from the H&M).

As for the concert it self:
Marilyn Manson, the music was just fine (not too loud, the support act was to loud), I couldn't always hear his voice though, but that's always the case with concerts.
It wasn't the most impressive act, but it was fun to watch. The light show was great, there was a lot of smoke and over all it was quite good. The poster on the wall they switched all the time, they had some damned impressing idea's and I liked the overall music (to be real honest I didn't know a lot of songs but I still had fun trying to sing along).
Conclusion I wouldn't have wanted to miss this for the world.

Love Monster,
- you know I'm the one under your bed.

Finally~

2009-12-01T09:27:00.000-08:00

The doujinshi brought on ebay is here! Have I told you that I just love the manga Peacemaker Kurogane? Well ever since last spring I do!

And today my doujinshi arrived. Okita en Hijikata stories~ yaay~

Isn't it a beautiful picture of Okita? it's shiny too (lol)

Isn't it the cutest? I really like the drawing style of this doujinshika!

However it's not the only thing I have been up too, god no. I'm reading Hana Yori Dango and I got myself so tired (I have a lack of sleep), that I totally look like a zombie I mean like this, so who has some brains to share with me?
Seriously, school, my boyfriend, manga's and my parents have been killing me.. They all want time! They all want it and take it and gonna eat it like I am going eat your brains! whoever said life is easy as undead? *couchasIamnowcouch*

I hope to feel better by tomorrow. Haha, otherwise I might really do weird things.... let's not imagine what would happen at my school *coughmassacrecough*.

I'm going to get myself some sleep and feed manga's some more of my time.

- Broken Antique. (at least I feel like a piece of BROKEN antique)

Ghost

2009-10-26T13:46:00.000-07:00

Ghost - you're like a memory that slowly fades away.

A poem by Emilie autumn.

"where are you now

standing behind me taking my hand

come and remind me who you are

have you traveled far

are you made of stardust too

are the angels after you

tell me what I am to do

but until then I'll save your side of the bed"

This is Halloween!

2009-09-22T22:37:00.000-07:00

Look what I got myself yesterday? personally I really love my shoes! I used to wear these kind of shoes all the time~ this is what I call good for the Halloween mood.

Something really special happened to me and June, at least it's special to me. A woman came running up to us and asked if she could make a picture. We agreed after all we though it's not that big of a deal, (she's just an artist who does it for fun). But now I feel really honored, I mean someone actually thought I was special enough to make a picture of! Niiice!

Well I'm sure feeling good about myself now.

She put the picture on here site ( http://aucoindemarue.wordpress.com/ ) this is the picture.

Like the saviour he was..

2009-08-30T22:33:00.000-07:00

So here I am again and I made it trough the first week. I stayed at June's place this weekend and we played Call of juarez bound in blood. To be really honest, I liked the game a lot it's a shooter about the McCall Brothers who want to rebuilt there farm after the war. The oldest brother, Ray, has heard about a legend of Aztec gold (of course). Well Thomas and Ray fall in love with the same girl and it seems Ray is willing to do everything for this girl. The third and unplayable brother is my very favorite, William he's the cute youngest and tries to turn his brother 'to the light' (he's a believer).
Ray told Thomas before that if he ever took his girl again (meaning any girl of Ray), he'd take Thomas' life. As we all know this just can't end well, the girl called Marisa used Ray and fell in love with Thomas. So in the end Thomas thinks thanks to Marisa that both his brothers are dead and he goes with Marisa to the gold. Ray saved William from almost being killed and then finds out Thomas left them both, soon they are all in the same place again. Ray faces off against Thomas - demanding justice.William moves between them and declares he won't allow Ray to shoot Thomas, threatening to "reach on the count of three". By three, Ray shoots William, realizing he was only reaching for the Bible. William collapses and dies. There's quite a lot more to the story, but I can't tell more right now.

Trough a lot of shooting, there was a really nice story. I especially liked/hated the end.. it was beautiful.. but I hated it. Poor William! >__> why did he HAD to die, he really was a sweet character.. maybe a bit to sweet. so we finished the game and have to go to school tomorrow again.

I'll write soon to you again,
- Your little Monster

over already..

2009-08-24T12:09:00.000-07:00

yeah the holidays are over again.. and tomorrow I'll go to school again,
to be completely honest I don't know how I feel about it.. a part of be is excited really excited, I mean it'll be my final year it'll be tough but after that it's all over FOREVER! That sounds so great that I can hardly put my mind to something else..
On the other hand I really want the holidays to last longer, I was having such a nice time really. I got myself addicted to Final fantasy 10, I played Shadow of the Colossus and I saw several really good movies. I didn't draw to much good stuff though... only really stupid stuff XD;
I also saw the movie Resident Evil Degeneration, that SO made me fall in love with Leon.. and June likes Leon too we should -censored for your own good- yes we should, whahaha!!

We all love Leon!
Btw kill me, I'm in love with a song of James Blunt... it's to late!

confessions of the heart.

2009-08-10T02:16:00.000-07:00

"I have a confession to make...."

I am very much in love with this dress, I know it's pink..
I know it's sweet loli... but ever since Paris I find myself loving sweet loli as much as the other styles.

I am really in love with the dresses of Angelic Pretty lately. Not only the Parfume dress but also the Star night Theater in blue. Of course Angelic Pretty is not absolutely my favorite brand, I really like Victorian maiden, Innocent world and Baby, and Moi-meme-Moite too. I really can't make a choice what's my favorite brand.
I'd do anything to get my hands on the Parfume dress though, really I'd do almost anything! It's such a beautiful dress and I'm starting to feel different about pink. I start to feel it's ridiculous not to wear it just because it's girly, well Lolita is girly.. Guess what I like it! Just because I like pink doesn't make me a stupid Blondie or anything.

So dear Lolita god, I have excepted my fate...

Me's in love ♥
- Pink Monster *Rawr*

Ps: Yes I like Super Princess Peach too! Guess what I like Peach, she's better then Mario to me.

100% back.

2009-08-06T15:18:00.000-07:00

Finally I'm back in my sour sweet home country, I came back from Paris on the 27th but four days later I left again.
I went to Ghent en Brugge in Belgium this time, I had quite a good time and I really love Ghent. Brugge on the other hand is boring and touristic, Ghent really was a cute little city. The lace was awful cheap really, I bought hand gloves made of lace for such a cheap price (I mean like it was 1,- for a pair). I also saw five churches, I think it where five maybe four.. anyway they were lovely and really beautiful I just love the stained-glass windows.
Sadly enough I went to the ceremony of the holy blood of Jesus, the priest was scary oh god I mean it! He said this: " This is not for tourists this is for the real believers"
and I felt like I had to flee, only my mother loved it and made me stay... Never ever that I'm going to do that ever again. We also went to a museum in an old hospital. Today we went back and we made a stop in Antwerpen there we went to the Rubens museum sadly enough I wasn't allowed to make pictures, the picture were beautiful... especially the Annunciation (I was grew over my shock of the day before). The garden was almost even more beautiful then the house it self.

Paris was even more fun then Belgium, I've seen quite a lot of things I've already seen before but it was still worth it. June wasn't he's usual self though... for the first time I've seen him work so hard. I mean he cooked, he did the dishes he cleaned.. he woke up early it was almost scary!
I think I loved the last day best, we went to the Baby the stars shine bright in Paris and to the Montmartre to the Sacré-Cœur I really love how it looks even though it's not as beautiful as the Notre Dame it's more special, because of it's view. One of the first days we also went to the Notre Dame.

I'm off~

2009-07-26T12:42:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow I'm off to Paris, I'll leave there at half past eight and I'll be in Paris around one O'clock.
I'm with June, it's only him and me on this holiday and it's quite exciting and quite scary as well.
We planned this for so long and I'm so glad to go~ but I am quite nervous since this will be the first time I'm on a holiday without my parents.
I'll be back on the 31th, so I'll Be back soon.

Love Antique monster.

It's my birthday!!

2009-07-22T02:03:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to me- bulldog mansion

Well it's really my birthday and I turned 17 today..!! Most of my friends are on vacation, but it's a lot better then last year. Last year I just came back from Vienna on my birthday and I was ill.. my first present of the day was a twix and I lost the wrap. Today I'll be heading of with some of my friend to a sushi restaurant, one of them is my twin brother from another mother(and father)! He turns 18 today.

Anyway I wanted to show of my presents! After that I will go to the city with my mum and eat some cake. (since my father has to work today), I'll so the pictures of this evening later!
I got a Angelic Pretty shirt, Meta socks and a angelic pretty ring.

Edit:
Well I went to the city with my mum and we eat some cake, I thought the cake looked so sweet and lovely, so I took pictures of it. I at strawberry cake and my mum had chocolate, we had mint tea and everything seemed so perfect to me! the cake was really delicious even though I usually don't like cake so much, but then again you only turn 17 once in your life, hahaha. The day was really worth it especially because June called me (he's on a holiday in Italy) and I missed him so much.
Around six o'clock I went to a restaurant with some of my friends, didn't take to much pictures here so I can't show anything V_V;
Anyway one of my friends is also born on July the 22th so we celebrated it together, we at sushi and had lots of fun. This really was the best birthday until now! I'm sorry June, kawing and Saile couldn't be there (there all on a holiday). They would have loved to be here~

Alice in Wonderland.

2009-06-23T11:14:00.000-07:00

Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland

Everyone must have heard of it by now... Tim Burton's Alice's Adventures in wonderland! Personally I can hardly wait! The first shots look wonderful and I have to admit I just love the Idea of Tim Burton making my favorite children's tale into a wonderful movie, 'cause it'll be wonderful I know for sure!
I have to admit I never was such a huge fan of Disney's Alice in wonderland, because of the short story, I was never disappointed in the art though.

The first pictures of Alice in wonderland look lovely, Johny Depp makes me think of some kind of Visual kei artist. The cast is by the way: Johnny Depp- The Mad Hatter (Perfect, he was also awesome as Willy Wonka I'm sure he'll do a good job on this one too!), Anne Hathaway- The White Queen (I don't like her desine too much, she's a bit plain from what I've seen), Michael Sheen -The White Rabbit (Lucian from Underground, seems like a perfect bunny too me), Helena Bonham Carter -The Red Queen (I didn't expect other, then Helena to be the heart queen), Alan Rickman-The Caterpillar (well Snape his voice'll be perfect, but I get a bit tired of this acter),Christopher Lee-The Jabberwock (Wooohhooooh dracula as the Jabberwock great choice!), Stephen Fry-The Cheshire Cat (don't know him)

And of course Mia Wasikowska as Alice! (personally I think she's way too old to play Alice since Alice is supposed to be 11 or 12 years old and Mia is 19 and look like atleast 16).

Nightmares, who aren't so scary.

2009-06-01T02:16:00.000-07:00

That this thing, may even call it self a nightmare.. I mean really.
So I dreamed about the place where I used to go camping each summer, it started as a nice and happy dream. I went to my old hiding place and everything seemed fine. Only the entrance seemed blocked, me and my mother looked at it for some time and then I saw it was blocked by a dead deer. I tried to pull it out of the way.. and then it seems like it's been eaten. Suddenly I hear some noise and see other deers coming towards us... (meat eating deers? yes sir.) Well I ran as hard as I could, and I kept trowing meat from the dead deer towards the other meat eating ones, on my way out of the forest I met a motorbike rider I panicked out so I begged her to bring me to the camping place where it was "save". When I was at the camping place I noticed my mum wasn't there and I figured out she was still with the meat eaters. So me and my new motorbike friend decided we would go look for my mother. The others in the camp warned us not to go only the adult would go look for survivors, but my friend and I ignored the warning and sneaked in. There where these special gates, where we had to sneak trough to get into the forest. The adults took the left one, or the middle and we too took the right. I didn't have to search for long, we spilt up.. and came back together soon because my companion was a bit afraid. We found my mother she was bitten, but alive. Funny enough she didn't look like my real mum at all she more looked like me with longer hair. When we all went back (me and my friend carrying my mum). We heard from the other campers when you are bitten you'll become something like a deer-human in time and you'll be eating other too! I was like "what the heck?" my friend was like "Oh god, you can't mean this... the irony almost makes me sick." We looked at each other and I said to her/him (it was unsure on this point) "I am not gonna let my mommy down because of something stupid like that!" from that point on I kept calling my mother "mommy". She was really ill and almost wouldn't wake up, I kept calling for her all the time but she didn't react. After some time her wounds finally healed, but it began... the deer transformation.
I had no choice, (and in my dream this almost became funny) I asked my mum if it was alright that I would kill her because it would hurt to much to see her turn into a monster. She agreed with her last breath.
I killed her with a knife, that I put straight to her heart (I first drew a circle on the place with red chalk or eh pastel) it looked really ridicules. Like it's so easy to put a knife trough someones skin.
That was my friend, I still wonder if it was a boy or a girl.

After that I woke up and thought, how the hell did I made this up in my twisted mind?
I have had nightmares about my parents before, but this was really pathetic.. couldn't I scare myself at least a bit better?

The last real nightmare I had about my father was way scarier and a nicer story, lol.

So many thing I want to do.

2009-04-13T00:44:00.000-07:00

Or would like to have.

I've a new obsession you could say..
Vivienne Westwood, Damn her jewelery is so beautiful!
Like that ring, it's so beautiful,
But it's Vivienne Westwood.. in other words the prices are so high and for a high schoolgirl like me way to high!
It's 180,- that's actually insane >___>;

*keeps dreaming about Vivienne Westwood's way to expensive jewelery*

It is funny I found out my mum had body lotion of Vivienne Westwood (I never knew that), it smells so nice, but my dad hates it (like I care), so I lent it from my mum (and it was never to return).

I'm so out of money >___> I need a job, but dunno where to get one I don't want to work at the supermarket.

Also I'd love to not go to school to day, I'm worried about my well....
old friends, they're not really my friends anymore but they try to get into a school for which the first of them is already told she should stop drawing manga.
I guess that if you wanna get into an art school you're better off drawing American comics then manga.
I fear for my future now.

The day before yesterday.

2009-04-12T09:36:00.000-07:00

The day before yesterday I bought myself some nice stuff.
I bought the newest Gothic and Lolita bible

it's full of pretty clothes (like usual, damn I'm always getting so greedy).

Mary Magdalene has such a pretty clothes this spring, I wish I could buy some.
Aside of the G&L Bible I also bought this cute pencil case.. I couldn't help myself!
The shopkeeper thought it was for my little sister or something I think >___>; since she asked me if it was a present.

inside.

backside.

All my new stuff together.

Oooooohh~ I also got my ticket of D= out, I wish someone could go with me.. but everyone seems busy so I'll just go on my own (well I might meet up with Rosie).
I can't wait to see D = out life!

Talking about concerts on the 10th of June Dir en Grey is coming to the Netherlands again! I so want to see them again~! So anyone wants to join me? hehehe.

Neues Palais

2009-03-30T11:04:00.000-07:00

short entry.

I've been back for a week now, but I'm still tired... it was so much fun!
Okay everything is in German but hey, I've seen so much beautiful things!
Potsdam was beautiful with sans souci~!

And New Palace was beautiful too!

oh I love it and I also bought a lot of manga's in German, like elfen lied (with censor though >__>) Nana (for a friend of mine, but it turned out I loved it too) and Ludwigh from yuki kaori she's so awesome! She also made Angel Sanctuary and Count Cain, she's makes the thing I'd like to make if I was an mangaka, I mean angels, victorian era and such.

But I am glad to be home, I always miss home after a little time.... and I missed the EA concert too ;;_;; next time I've to go to her concert! I really want her CD Opheliac so badly!

Michel~♪

2009-03-05T12:12:00.000-08:00

I'm totally hooked on the song of anouk Michel, And that's totally because it reminds me of my new character. What a surprise it's Michel~

He's my sweet, French, fagot snob of doom. He's the owner of a Fashion shop in Paris, the shop in fact sells Japanese brands. Michel is a horrible shop owner or at least a horrible employer he loves to order everyone who work under him around -even if not necessary.
His favorite food would be the chocolate from the shop on the corner. He's a total fashion slob and would drag on about you not wearing anything that matches to your shoes. - Oh god.
He has a thing for earrings, each has a story and a meaning according to Michel.
Each earing is a broken heart of either way himself or of his passed lover.
He's has no prefer in sex "Ah naturellement, I prefer w'over is pretty".
I'd say Michel is in for abusing you as his employee. "Oh and mon chère bring the chocolate, rapide"

So much for writing about Michel, I've grown to fond of the guy somehow.
I bet it's because I imagine him with a lame French accent.

Rentrer en Soi

2008-12-10T08:09:00.000-08:00

Rentrer en Soi:

a Jrock band, who started to listen to in 2006. I slowly started to love this band very much, the members are Satsuki the singer, Takumi who plays guitar just like Shun, Ryo the bassist and Mika the drummer.
The first song I heard of them was Protoplasm, which always stayed my favourite song.

It was one of my dearest wishes to once see them live... but....

.... my dear favourite band is quitting, this December the 25th will be there last concert.
I so wished, pleaded to see them live one day.. but I know that will never happen now.
Sayonara, I will always remember your music,

I will keep listening to it and I will secretly wish you all will make a come back.

By the way, that reminds me of that movie "Merry Wishmas" for fairly odd parents I so know what I would have wished.